we can do anything if we put own mind to it

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I'm writing this at 12:12 am 
Nah I'm not in love but I'm feeling so weird . 
So on 4th April around 8 pm I was walking in the garden and I was all alone to this new place . I see this lil baby left on the floor and a man just standing still and I just knew that a delicate child so small should not be left on a floor full of dust . 
I didn't know him , I walk up to that guy and ask him if I can play with tht child . And he carried it away to me and then asks me if I'm comfortable holding that 1 year old . Then we introduce eachother and as planned but I couldn't meet him the next day , then on 6th we exchanged our cell phone numbers . Since then it's been days and we atleast meet eachother once in a day . The 2nd time we met , he took me to the grocery store holding my hand by his right and carrying suparv ( his nephew) by his left. It felt like the most romantic movie scene happening to me . He'd never come out after 9pm . He'll always check on me if I reached home after we meet outside . I've never seen such a polite man before.  He's 2 years younger to me but treats me like as if we knew eachother since a long time,  it took us no time to mix up with eachothers vibe . We call eachother in the morning and go for a walk . Literally my day starts with him and I guess i feel good energy after that 20 mins time spent with him.  A lot of girls have a crush on him and he'd tell me all his crazy stories and make me feel so homie.  He introduced me to his bhaiya and bhabie and his bhabie is cool , IT professional  and bhaiya is in the Indian army.  Saurav did share his insights,  he is a family man . Values the good emotions and nourishment.  Pays importance to love. 
He is everything so genuine and pure . I write this to note it here cus 2023 is a very tough time for me . But as I always dreamed of a guy who'd walk with me and gossip with me bout  those romantic desires and movie scenes . I guess I manifested him . And idk just the thought of having him around feels bliss . After a hectic day looking at his pretty face lights up my mood sometimes.  I'm so grateful to mother nature for gifting me with such boons . Helps me push myself throughout the day even on my worst days . I'm participating in the web 3 project in dappathon with aryan , Kusal sapra and baby banjosa . I'm very excited bout it and it's 1 am , my stomach is hurting so bad . But I'm very happy with my team mates and I feel so blessed for these opportunities that I've got . 
I'm sure I'll look back at these days and feel so proud of me . I know I'm gon win my game and I believe in myself. Ik I can just fall in love and get distracted but it's always you , you choose all the time. I choose to work on myself instead of relying on my emotional needs . I choose to work 4 hours a day and do my work to make some money . I choose to involve in activities to boost my career.  My family is not proud of me but idc I'm just glad I stop seeking validation.  I know I'm destined for a something more fruitful and heavenly.  I believe I'm gonna live my dream . I'm born for a purpose and I'll do my duty to this world.  

If you want something,  you never stop for anything else until you get that something 

Yours only , 
janhv .

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