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toxic parents

Narcissistic toxic parents almost never realize their mistakes or feel true remorse for their behavior. The structure of narcissistic personality disorder (NPD) and strong narcissistic traits prevents the introspection and empathy required for genuine regret. Instead, their behavior often worsens with age, leading to a future of bitterness, loneliness, and further victim-blaming.  Why narcissistic parents rarely realize their mistakes Built-in defense mechanisms: People with NPD have deeply ingrained psychological defenses that protect their fragile ego from shame and blame. Admitting fault or weakness would cause immense internal distress, which they avoid at all costs. To them, it feels like an ego death. Inability to feel guilt: Narcissists may experience shame when they lose social status or a "supply" of attention, but they do not experience genuine guilt over hurting others. Because they lack emotional empathy, they cannot truly understand or internalize the pain they h...

I'm a Problem, only I can solve

There are a lots of tears behind writing this ✍️  I write this in funny way cus I feel deja vu.  Umm depression, then after few years of chronic depression I jumped off a 6 story building in 2021. My bad , I didn't know if anyone could still be alive . But I think I'm dead soul cus I'm not living . I have never lived. I have only been surviving, surviving at the edge , crying , begging, begging for help in my mind.  I just can't live a normal life tho my life might look normal πŸ™ƒ  B12 , vitamin b12 , protein I want it . But my vegetarian family won't gimme that . I'm broke financially. πŸ’”  I have damaged skin & bones now . After all its my fault cus I damaged myself . This guilt I shall carry as My mother reminds me about it daily .  Today I was supposed to go to infosys office but I didn't as it was 1+ hours far . Taxi fares would cost me about 800 to 1000 + . I'm not feeling fine so I need rest , i told my mom I need some meet shall I order it cook...

for words that aren't under your control

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Words really molds the chemical ecosystem in our minds , at least it does so in my body .  Life shall be more asthetic, pleasant, peaceful, beautiful, easy , loving , enjoyable, tho its really not easy to live a life especially the one that I imagine in my mind .  A life which I'll soon be living ✨️ I'm counting the days I really mean it .  It's 18 June 2025 today . I believe I'll be there some day in that peaceful life I crave .  Hold on  Be practical Imagine how beneficial it is for you to control your reactions , anger and words .  I'm sure you get happy when you get appreciated by someone . It makes you believe you are worth that appreciation and that is your reality.   Your reality is what you believe. But your reality is not what people assume about you .  Yes , you read it right . You are what you believe you are , come'n you can't be lame believing people around you even if it's your mother , sibling , friend , foe or anyt...

just realized 😳

There was this one guy who has 6k+ followers on LinkedIn. Co-founder at connect verse - web3 community at Bangalore.   Texted me on April 10 2025 . Started conversations after I first replied him. We use to have really long conversations until midnight slowly after we Started talking .  He asked really intimate questions and naive me blindly replied . He told me he feels connected to me . He told me I've become emotionally naked to him . Honestly to me it never mattered as I thought he's a stranger so I don't have to care . But the month long conversation . Morning noon night , oh yea he asked me out to be his study buddy and I said yes . But it never went well .  It's 26 of May and I guess I never got to know him. I only revealed myself. Well none of that matters . I  do it most times . I encounter wrong relations. Following are the terms that describe me : "Convenience" — as in “a convenience to others”. "A placeholder" – someone people only keep a...

Don't share information about you

Been through some Bad shit ?  Sad bitch or Savage  What do you wanna be ?  Wanna seek respect ?  Don't share your sad journey. Your  destination will speak for you .  Wanna be strong in a relationship, Don't share your information, journey, wounds , weakness .  In the end , nothing really matters . Nobody's gonna remember your pain , suffering.  Nah you not gonna highlight that shit ,  Why ? You need sympathy ?  Go ahead do it if it makes you feel better .  But how is it gonna do you any good . Receiving pity from people is no good to a powerful person.   The only difference between a strong and powerful is that all those who are suffering are strong but the ones who get outta that loop are the powerful.  If someone is making you feel like shit and if you felt it . It's cus you let them , there's something called emotional shield πŸ›‘  Don't respect and believe that person's judgment.  Keep yourself warm and c...

❤celebrate your existence.

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Yay I'm getting golder πŸ’ƒ As a child, I always thought that birthday anniversary was all about party i.e. cutting a sugar saturated cake and binging on junk food and expecting for gifts over which your happiness is gon rely πŸ€” πŸ™ƒ πŸ˜•.   I say ,  Only you can make yourself feel the feelings you want to . Only you can gift yourself the things you crave for . Never rely on people for happiness.   Objects are not gonna be your gifts in life  You trying to get closer to your true potential  ,You getting closer to your potential heights is the utter present 🎁   Celebrating life means to respect your life , soul , health , intuitive thoughts and yourself and for sure your dreams and goals . The art of working hard to chase your dreams > keeping expectations from people and relying on people for your happiness.  Glow up as you grow up πŸ…

cope up with unfinished business

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Bravery is when you don't rely on people to sync ur mood to things they do .  Q) Why do I obsess over unfinished relationships? The simplest explanation for why people have a hard time moving on after an unfinished relationship is that there was no closure in the relationship. Obsession starts because one feels like there was not an adequate ending, and is often left wondering why it didn't work out as planned . Ans.: Dealing With Repressed Emotions Sometimes when you truly love somebody,  it's better to let them go to allay the misery.  In the end of the day , lmao be happy that this toxic shit is passed outa ur life . It's dead , you got over it . You moved on , you've been working on yourself and are moulded into a better version of you . You feel more like the true you , you realize the fact that you are destined to be at something more better than the past .  Be grateful thar you got a chance to seek this mistake before you got more further....